Well, I'm back for like till Tuesday...I’m so tired and I have been sick twice this summer...the pounds are just melting away its just so hot outside at camp and Sam makes meeh work out. Crazy dancers...well I have been tired and I miss so many people. Like when I’m at camp its tons of fun but I feel so disconnected to everything and everyone. This week was really crazy and so hard...I need lots of prayers. But it is so amazing to get to impact kids lives. I love these kids so much and even if I get tired and sick and get paid like nothing it’s so still worth it!!! Well I just wanted to say hi to you guys and I’m home for two whole days if anyone wants to chilax!!!
Well I have been working for the last three weeks. My summer job rawks! I mean it’s a lot of work being a kid’s counselor but it is a lot of fun. Sámi makes it even funner she is a super awesome room mate. We see each other everyday for 6 days so our one day off it feels weird not seeing each other. Messy day rawks my world. I miss being here and I miss sum of my friends, but it has given meeh a lot of time to think. I also love the other 4 girl counselor’s meeh and Sam work with. Out of the guy counselors I like 1 other than Sam’s brother. The praise leader Domingo loves Sam and keeps writing her songs and pushing her in the lake its crazy lots of fun. I'm super dark. I got a really good tan and I have lost wait from all the being in the sun and running around chasing little children. it feels weird being graduated...this year so much has changed. I’m not sure if it was for the best or the worst, but there is no going back...I have had a lot of stuff on my mind l8tly. Life is always better when you have a friend to talk to, but I sum times miss the old ones...Victoria sent meeh a message the other day ...it made meeh think about all my old Kerr buddies the good and the bad ones...ehhh...memories. I hung out with minh today and it was super lots of fun. Then we went to chik-fil-a and I saw Tony we sat and ate lunch with him. That was nifty...I have known minh and Erika for 5 years and we are still friends...longest time ever. Well I’m tired so I should go now…back at camp tomorrow I love you guys so much!!!
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Well, I have been super busy since I got back. Graduation was a lot of fun. I finally started to like the H.A.A place at the end of the year well maybe not the school but I love the kids….specially my fiancé Sámi. I chilaxed at Brittney’s house the last two weekends it was a lot of fun I almost got arrested like 3 time the first time. Stupid memorial and their stupid laws. My birthday is on Wednesday I can not wait. I’m excited. Cole planned a whole weekend. Also, 3:15 am showing of star wars!!! Wooo hoooooooo!! My nose will be pierced either this weekend or when I get back from camp! I can not wait…I want my hair to be purple…I got a new summer smell Brittney taught me all about summer and winter smells. Gosh I’m so fricken different from these white people…but it’s okay because they love me and I love them. Sámi was right I make things complicated and I’m way more sensitive then I would like to admit but I still believe the truth is the best way to go. I’m going as strawberry shortcake. This year was really not what I thought it would be…I lost some friends and I made some groovy ones. I learned a lot...Sometimes bad things happen and then good seems to come out of it…craziness…Wow I Miss Kerr I’m going to Kerr on Thursday during lunch and what not Teresa told me to! It will be weird. I’m so through with high school!!! HCC here I come but only for a year then it’s on to the big one University of Houston maybe but I really want to go to DePaul oh well first super awesome fun at summer camp being a counselor with Sámi!!!
Life constantly changes...I have no clue what is ever going to happen. Lots of stuff has happened this year that I knew would happen. A lot of stuff has happened that I would have never imagined. I have been chillaxing with Cole a lot l8tly. He is a really great friend. He is always there to listen to all my problems and its ok to cry around him...it doe snot happen often only twice. It's hard for me to cry in front of people. Samantha spent the night Wednesday...I love that girl. She is great I got to know her so well in Germany. She is a really awesome friend I am super glad I got to know her so well this year. It was so much fricken fun! Sámi, I, Britney h., and Cole went to the park after youth on Wednesday. We almost got arrested because it was like 11:30 and sum guy called the cops on us...it was crazy then we all went back to my house and Cole stayed for awhile. After he left we were still feeling crazy and bored so we all went and wrapped Stewarts house it turned into a big deal today but I did not care it was worth it. Sámi did not let me sleep...we watched center stage when we got home. She is such a dancer she was correcting the girls arms and positioning and turn out…what a dork *jokes* It made the movie kind of long…I have gotten a total of 8 hours of sleep this whole entire week. Graduation is Saturday so I went shopping with Cole, Brittney s., and Cindy. It was fun I found what I wanted for Sámi. I hope she likes it…still have to make her tassels….poster and card... ah so much to do this weekend and so little time. she is growing up so fast I will miss her so much...I hope she gets that job with me over the summer she is groovy. After shopping we ate at chik-fil-a and the mall started to close on us so we went to target to get graduation cards and candy. Then we went to Cole’s house and started this creepy movie I forgot the name...but I will finish it this weekend. I can not wait. Saturday I go to graduation, Mackey’s party, then I chill with Brittany and Cindy till we all go to the movies with Cole and Sámi...I will spend the night at Brittany house...party...keeping busy makes dealing with sum things easier. I hate that things have to change, but I guess its inevitable...I will miss what is lost. But I will still enjoy what I have.
Man guys I leave for Germany on like Thursday at ....pray please I’m scared of planes no joke. Also I will not be on aim, lj, or xanga till like the 1st week of March cause it’s my April fast...it will be hard and I will miss u all!!! Leave me lots of comments to look at when I get back on…it will make me feel special and loved…or do not whatever tickles ur pickle!
I was talking to myself the other night and I realized I do not mind being average looking...I mean I never really truly wanted to be hot....I mean honestly looks fade and who cares if your hot but u lack a personality or cant ever spell your name. I have always wanted to be intelligent. I mean not a complete and total brain, but just be a little smart about one topic. I know so many smart people and I just want to be one of them...*sighs* so at least when I talk to myself I sound smart...is that so much to ask for?
man so much hw.....to do before Germany....*takes out knife and kills hw*
You are dreamy and mystical, with a natural psychic ability. You love music, poetry, dance, and (most of all) the open sea. Your soul is filled with possibilities, and your heart overflows with compassion. You can be in a room full of friendly people and feel all alone. If you don't get carried away with one idea, your spiritual nature will see you through anything.
Well, I'm at my aunts house right now...my mom was put in the hospital...not the mental kid...she has a blood clot...and we are nto surre whats wrong...Man it was a long day..i hope she is ok..pray for ok guys if u want... love u all!
Yeah, Well I finally got mai computer back and I cried like for an hour yesterday because the guy who cleaned it deleted all my pictures. To me my journal and my pictures are like my most cherished possessions. I'm super depressed about it. This past week has really been quiet sucky....I realized how many fake lil friends I had. Then the play is like completely cancelled, so I have worked my butt off on a crappy play for no reason. Next year for me is going to be worse then this year. However, after crying for like forever last night Rachel called me and we talked and I feel so much better. I'm not sure why I feel better but I do. I thought today could not get worse, but then I made soup tripped and it spilled all over my hand, chin, and the side of my eye. It was hot and now my chin and stuff are red and burn. Oh, wells what can u do...that’s just me. Super tired....so much work...so much sadness....but I will find a smile somewhere deep with in me.
Well, I have been hanging out with Cole allot l8tly! He is really funny...we went to chili's Wednesday which was fun. Leah came with Willie. Then Thursday I had a super long rehearsal and I messed with Tim allot...he makes meeh laugh...he is mai sword fight partner and then we were "dirty" dancing to sum Indian rap thing...it was funny. Then Cole took meeh home, but first we fatties stopped at taco bell and then a store. I was so excited i got Rachel a v-day gift and it is super cute!! Then Friday I went to watch Cole dance and of coarse mai fiancé Sámi dance they really are quite talented. Well, Cole picked us up at like 3:00 then we went to memorial mall so I could get Sámi a v-day gift...I found her this really cute necklace from buckle and a cute lil kitty stuffed animal thing. We all went to I-Hop afterwards which was okays...I was super hyper and I started singing to mai food and I talked to Brittney allot. I did not get home till like 2 am and I had to get up at 5:30…I’m sooooo tired! I realized these people are actually quiet fun to hang out with...just miss the Asians. Then today I was like at church all day for this youth leadership thing...the speaker was super good. Well, love u guys! Arggg mai play is next weekend I can not wait.... XdarkkittenX- that’s mai emo name!
Hey I went to the gong show...it was funny. Only at Kerr can u see such a variety of acts. I loved it when people got gonged...made meeh laugh. It was nice seeing everyone again! Yeah, well amir and Camille rawked and so did YMCA! I might go to seed folks like Thursday....and Teresa wants meeh to go to sum car wash ting on Saturday. Rachel left H.A.A it was sad I cried like all day Thursday....now all I have left is mai Sámi *she is really sweet* and Cole the mole*funny guy*.
I have decided for next year's talent show I will do a pole dance to I’m a slave for u or to you make meeh want to la la...man I love those songs they make meeh go nuts.
Mai play is FEB 18 and 19 I'm selling tickets They are 8 bucks
The play is located between 610 and 59...on the corner of Caplin and Irvington
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i had fun this weekend saturday i went to a play with carrie, marisa, and other people...do nto even get meeh started on that play. However, it was nice to get to see everyone. Sundai chilled with philip and carolina mai lil care bear. During service meeh and leah could not stop talking..that chick cracks meeh up...her and her bf. I stayed home from school today i can barely talk. People from school called meeh and told meeh i sound like a grandma...Jessi called meeh todai to and she told meeh the same thing....ahh whenever jessi calls she always tells meeh about kerr drama she is so cute. I have like two papers to write and a project...guess i should stop being lazy and do it. luv yah allz
Hey guys, Well, I think I’m doing allot better now. It was all just a little black shadow hiding the light for awhile, but I got a night light and things are looking brighter. I have been getting to know Carolina and Leah a little bit better and I love them so much. They are both kind of different, but they make me laugh. I went to Kerr last night and I had a blast! It was nice getting to see people I had not seen in awhile. Michelle gave meeh this really long hug and it almost brought me to tears. I needed a hug like that. She made meeh feel so loved and missed. It was like I finally realized I do have people who care about me...we may not talk all the time, but I am loved. Thank you so much Michelle. Reshma looked gorgeous!!! What a hot and sexy banana she was!!! It was weird walking through the hallways again. I got to talk to sum of the English teachers, they are really nice. I really do hope I go back to kerr next year. I know I will miss certain people from H.A.A, but it will be better for me. Tomorrow I’m going out with Philip, Carolina, and Leah, Should be tons of fun. I'm excited, I woke up this morning and I felt content. Now I must go work. I have pictures to post , but I will do that later.
well... what can i say? life has not been the bestest right now! I have messed up alot l8tly and its really been getting meeh down. I'm sure things will get better soon. Ijust need to get use to sum things that are really hard for meeh to deal with.
Man guys I feel like I’m starting over again. Over break I had time to think a lot. I mean really think about things that are important to me. I realized who mai really good friends are. They were not really the friends I expected. Sometimes good friends are right under your nose. Allot also happened over the weekend. I seem to be becoming really good friends with mai enemies. I learned that I am somewhat of an insecure person. And I will deal with that problem right now. Man I do not know what I would do with out Rachel Rodriguez...I spent allot of time with her over break and she is really a great person. Leah and Carolina rawk and I’m glad God put them in my life. I’m also going to start really applying myself at school...I mean I do allot of half doing it and waiting to the last minute and this cause’s un-needed stress. You know mai sisters are really great people. I never realized that mai mom would be right...friends cum and go but sisters are forever...it’s so true! I have also decided not to try to hold on to things or people ...I’m just going to accept that sometimes people or things are only in your life for a little while....they might not be forever, but what u learned while being with them is forever...Jacqui kind of told me something like that once...I did not get it, but I really do understand now. You can not fight the unenviable. I'm not gonna let life get me down anymore, I’m not going to blame people for mai issues, and I'm going to pay more attention to the little decisions in life because they really do shape your life and who you become. well bye guys...lots of love!